Friday, August 27, 2010

Weekend Tribute pt. 1: "Millenium Actress"

I'm only going to be watching this and Paprika this weekend, saving Tokyo Godfathers for it's proper place at Christmastime, and Paranoia Agent for when I have 6 hours to marathon it. (I don't actually own Perfect Blue yet because the DVD release is hard-letterboxed, which is just unacceptable).

So I just finished Millenium Actress. Actually, I just finished sobbing for a solid 20 minutes or so after finishing Millenium Actress. I probably should have swapped the two around and saved it for tomorrow as a fitting end to my weekend tribute. Because the very last scene... it...

I don't know the man. I never met him, I haven't been following his blog or Twitter feed (not that I could read it, but still), but it's hitting me pretty hard for some reason. This movie is perfect; every frame in it is perfect and beautiful. It speaks to me personally (and not because I'm a chunky guy with a goatee who occasionally crushes on movie stars...).

And the last scene... And the hints throughout, leading up to it...

I haven't even been able to read any full translations of his final farewell, but the excerpts were enough. He found out about the cancer in May, knew his outcome, and kept it quiet. Working right up to the end on his next movie. Worried about it getting completed without him.

In the movie, she knew what was coming, and was able to go out bravely and at peace. I can only hope the same for Kon. I suppose I can only hope the same for myself, though my fate is still many years off. Accounts of my father's end weren't so glamorous; maybe that's part of what hurts, knowing that's where I'm headed with these accursed cysts. Selfish, I suppose.

But, the true love was in the pursuit of passion... the key to it all. Can such a thing so beautiful be true? It must be. And I hope to the bottom of my heart that Satoshi Kon felt that as well.

1 comment:

Nick Istre said...

Brings to mind >this image someone made soon after hearing of his passing, doesn't it:

Someone did put out the full translation of his final words, and it's amazing to read. I'll post up a link if you want it.

Millenium Actress has always been my most favorite of Kon's films. Yeah, I like them all, but that one is the one I most love of his work. And now, I'm almost afraid to watch it again without some time afterwards to deal with the whirlwind after I had read through his farewell.